Monday, November 17, 2014

Out on the weekend

Oh Hello. For not being able to walk I actually had a good weekend! On Saturday I ran the collage workshop at the Good Copy. I was kind of nervous about it but I ended up having a really great time! It was a small group of people and everyone was so lovely, I found it so relaxing and fun! Here are some pictures.

On Sunday my friend Georgie hosted a birthday brunch at her house. Apart from running a little late and it taking forever to get a taxi from the station nearby (Could have probably crutched there in the time I waited) I had another really great, relaxing day! Georgie is a pretty amazing cook and she put on a massive spread including homemade crumpets, blueberry pancakes, fritters, fruit salads, cheese platters, a very large birthday cake AND a plethora of pastries and donuts which I snacked on well into the late afternoon... YUM. Brunch turned into me staying until like 6pm chatting for the first time in what felt like a long time to people outside of my immediate family. It was so lovely.

I also finally got my hands on Rookie Yearbook 3 and got to flip through that whilst putting my knee up. I'm so proud of the contributions I've made and still get a kick out of seeing my drawings scattered throughout the book.

Birthday cards for Georgie and my other friend Sophia whose birthday it was earlier in the week
Detail - (I liked the colours against my red skirt!)
One of my favourite spreads in Rookie Yearbook 3 with a background by me!
YAY so I had a nice weekend. I am aiming to be off my crutches by Wednesday so I can go to work but I am seeing my physio tomorrow to see what she says. Just giving you all my health/injury updates! ha ha.

Thursday, November 13, 2014

I'll write your name

My Mum has taken to calling me "Hop-along". I am still on crutches and my knee is actually still sore, I secretly thought I'd be fine in a couple of days but that's not the case! The Doctor said I had to be on crutches for a week, and I was hoping to speed that process up... but I think she was right. Eeep! It's so frustrating. Walking is something I took completely for granted, as most people tend to do I suppose. It's very disheartening feeling physically unable to get from A to B. As you can see, I am pretty annoyed with myself! It's only been four days! ha ha. On the bright side, it's done wonders for my blogging! Here I am again!

Last night I DID leave the house - as I mentioned, I was determined to do so! I went to the David Shrigley opening at the National Gallery of Victoria, crutches and all. Did you know it's hard to hold a glass of champagne and get around on crutches? It is. I had fun though, and then had dinner out - chauffeured right to the restaurant in a taxi no less! I've been working from home which is making things a lot easier, and survived the couple of hours on my feet for the exhibition opening with the help of the aforementioned champagne and of course lovely company.

Now I am hauled up in bed again with ice on my knee to get the swelling to go down again and I'm sending elaborate snap chat stories to my friends and I'm sure they are thinking that my 'knee selfies' are getting tiresome...

On Saturday I'm running a workshop (on crutches, of course) at The Good Copy as a part of the Independent Photography Festival. All the details are here! and the Good Copy is running a competition on their Instagram ( @thegoodcopy ) to win a ticket :) Get on it!

For someone who has only left the house once in the past four days, that's not a bad blog post I guess.

Here are some average pictures...

Outfit for Shrigley - Acne dress, Alpha 60 socks... my new FLAT SHOES (I know, I had to) and CRUTCHES from my Physio!
Soda, my only friend during the day
On Monday night my friends bought over burgers and Kinder Surprises and M&Ms for me! This is the toy I got OMG
Annoying Mum by touching everything at her shop waiting for her to give me a lift home
P.S Hi I am obsessed with the Taylor Swift 'Blank Space' video clip. See u later!

Monday, November 10, 2014

An uncool story

On Sunday I dislocated my knee. It was really unpleasant and I was in the company of someone who I didn't really wish to see me writhing around on the floor in pain, but unfortunately in some situations you have no choice... The paramedics came but luckily in that time my kneecap slipped back into its rightful place - that is, not sticking out the side of my leg. It was so painful and I keep saying this but it was literally the worst pain I've ever experienced! (I haven't experienced any really extreme pain before) SO, now I am feeling 50% embarrassed and 50% sorry for myself as well as feeling like I have NO idea how I am going to do stuff while I am incapacitated on crutches. I have a workshop I'm running on Saturday, work, and not to mention the David Shrigley opening at the NGV which I had been looking forward to for weeks. I am DETERMINED to go to the David Shrigley opening, like, I will crawl there in my best dress if necessary. It's frustrating because like I wasn't even doing anything out of the ordinary to dislocate my knee - I was literally just standing, getting ready to go somewhere and there was a shooting pain and it went out from under me! Couldn't believe it. So I don't even have an extreme story to go with the injury. I was just standing there. This is typical of me.

I was having a ball during the week before I dislocated my knee, though. I had two lunches out with friends, one dinner out, work, some illustration things in between and bought a new dress on Friday evening at Alpha 60. It was amazing because the sales assistant noticed that I had three $50 vouchers that I had accrued on my loyalty card there so I got $150 off my purchase! I bought the most incredible, vibrant blue silk and cotton dress. It's like Yves Klein Blue and I wouldn't usually go towards that colour but it was so perfect against my hair I couldn't resist! VERY exciting stuff.

Saturday was a really nice day. Pamela had a gig scheduled at a children's birthday party in Fitzroy, and it was really fun. The weather was warm and I wore the very same blue dress I'd bought the day before... haha. Anyway after that I went to the studio for a bit, then went to the Independent Photography Festival opening party thing at Strange Neighbor. I met Simon there and Brodie was there along with a few other people I vaguely knew. Simon and I then went for dinner at 400 Gradi which is an 'acclaimed' pizza restaurant on Lygon Street that people rave about. It really was great. We shared a margarita and some salads and shivered once we got outside again as a cool change had rushed over Melbourne. It was raining as we got in a taxi and went home.

Then of course Sunday was the fateful knee dislocation day and now I'm lying in bed feeling very sorry for myself after a phone conversation with my boss telling her I'd have to work from home and then thinking about how I'm not really going to be able to do anything this week... SIGH!

Snapchats to my frands
In retrospect, these shoes *could* be one of the contributing factors as to why I dislocated my knee...
Phone doodles
A portion of our audience on Saturday
Birthday cake!
Jelly beans from Dad
Don't these Jelly Beans remind you of being sick as a child? Their whole company makes all their money off of parents or guardians who buy them from chemist front counters to cheer up ill children. I am 23 but they still work...

Today my Mum took me to a bunch of appointments and I got an X-ray and stuff. My friends Bree and Therese came to visit me tonight to cheer me up and bought our favourite take-away burgers and Kinder Surprises to eat. I have some pretty lovely people in my life who still like me if I don't brush my hair in preparation for their company or if I'm hobbling around on crutches or even if I am writhing around on their floorboards screaming in pain louder than I even knew I could... eeep. :(

Thursday, November 6, 2014

Things I've learned recently

This is an uncharacteristically sporadic post that is of course subject to change... I'd just been thinking tonight about issues I've overcome this year and challenges I've faced and realised that they were all very valuable because I have been able to form much stronger opinions about who I am and what I want and equally deserve in my life ya know!

1. If someone or something gives you that sick, dark, heavy feeling in the pit of your stomach - don't ignore it - take steps to remove whatever is causing it from your life.

2. If you've cried over someone or something more times than you can count, that presence is not constructive or valuable to you. Separate yourself.

3. Do not apologize for the intricacies of your personality even if you fear they come across as irrational. Do not censor or water down your characteristics to allow other people to take up more space with theirs.

4. Romance is not grandiose or heart wrenching. It is mundane in the best of ways. It is in routine and certainty and in knowing someone will call you the next day. I didn't believe it either but romance CAN and DOES exist within stability.

5. Make decisions with a 50/50 balance between your *gut* and your mind, never wholly one or the other. Trust me.

Don't spend time with anyone who doesn't ask questions of you and your life.

7. Don't apologize to your company for expressing a opinion or gesticulating a little too wildly.

8. Do whatever the hell you want as long as it is not at the expense of other people's physical, emotional or mental well-being. Be kind and always tell the truth not only to others but to yourself.

9. Do not belittle your own achievements. Tell people about them and be proud. I am in the December issue of British Vogue:

10. Treat yourself.

Wednesday, November 5, 2014

I Know Places

Pradas on Tuesday
Patch collection coming along nicely
Easey Street studio time coming to an end
SODA relaxing on my clothing
This is what I'm doing if I tell you I'm "working on my book"
So stoked to illustrate Maude Apatow's interview with Lena Dunham for Rookie - after Lena saw the illustration she followed me on Instagram! *Fans self*
I just had a very visceral flashback to making zines in 2010. It was the summer holidays at the end of second year university, and I didn't leave the house for days at a time. It was hot as hell and I'd work on the floor of my bedroom with my grey-blue typewriter and hundreds of cut outs and photocopies strewn in a circle around me – sitting cross legged in the centre like some kind of pistil.

Whenever I look back on the zines I produced during the period of time between early 2010 and early 2012, I feel a little embarrassed at the daggy drawings I did and they seem somewhat childish. When I read the poems I wrote, however, an incredibly heady perfume of my feelings at that time overcomes me. They are very powerful - personally, anyway, in allowing me to be transported back to certain long since dissipated relationships and encounters. Perhaps even more powerful than looking back on old paintings. I often curse the specificity of words, but it's obvious that that specificity is what makes them so enormously powerful.

Here's one that I just read back over. I would have written this in 2011.

* * *

Longing for tongue on teeth, a wet heat. "I'm thinking a lot about the enormity of missing someone, that thirst, that unconquerable feat"

Shacked up stacks frame, exclaim the impossibility of that famed caress, a quick palm slip or a thigh clip. I'm hungry and clutchin' my coat to my chest, wrists watch through mottled windows futile in undress. "I never asked how dinner went, or how is that girl you frequent"

Breathe out through pursed lips, hollow a clenched fist, an absent hair twist. The horizontal figure eight haunts me once more burned into that slight hypnotic motion I could ignore

if it weren't for everything stemming from that stigma and the terrific fact that you're actually only an enormous elaborately packaged enigma.

* * *

Sigh. Writing poems is something I definitely want to revisit at some point. Unfortunately I don't have the hours and days on end like I did in that past summer to dedicate the emotional energy I'd need to make good poems.

I've been busy lately, doing god knows what - I'm still in limbo a little, a bit between things, in some ways. I'm enjoying myself, though, and am exploring some circles outside my usual ones. Moving into Gertrude seems unreal, now that it's getting this close. I am moving out of Easey Street at the end of November, pretty much the day of my 24th birthday. I am moving into Gertrude at the start of December. I feel like I really, really need this change of scenery. It is very easy for me to get stagnant and I feel like I have been for the past month or so, in lots of ways. I'm going to make my studio at Gertrude into the most amazing groovy "PAD" with everything I need like different cereals to snack on and cool furniture and I'm going to cover my walls with fabric and fabric prints and pictures and drawings and those glittery curtains. It will be MY SPACE and I can't wait to show my friends and you guys of course.

I spent all day Monday updating the pages of this here blog/website. If you check out the Painting, Drawing/Collage and Illustration pages you will see that they are finally showing more of my current work. I don't think I'd updated it in like 2 years. Whoops.

I bought this Acne dress online the other day that I have wanted since it first came out and was much more exorbitantly priced. I really, really want to wear it to the David Shrigley opening at the NGV but I don't think it will come in time :( If I keep visualizing myself in it, there - perhaps it will miraculously come true.

That's pretty much the extent of what is on my mind at the moment... in all its erratic glory.

Monday, October 27, 2014


I want to start using photobooth again because a curator has displayed interest in these types of works, and I used to really enjoy making them so it would be fun to explore again a few years down the track. I am completely obsessed with this new outfit. The colour combination is just so perfect. The skirt is Dress Up and the top is from Alpha 60. The blue is like a dusty denim coloured blue (even though the top is linen) which goes so nicely against the flame red of the skirt.

My blog has been lacking of late. I think because I'm feeling very inhibited with my writing at the moment. I'm used to writing very personally on here without the worry that many people would be reading it. I haven't felt like doing that lately. Maybe I've lost a kind of braveness or brashness that I used to have. It's probably not permanent.

Instead, I can just talk about things that I have bought lately... As well as the above blue and red outfit, I also bought the most beautiful Alpha 60 red and white pinstriped dress which actually looks pink from a distance. I absolutely love it and it is the perfect summer dress. You can kind of change it up a bit by tying the shoulder ties in different ways. The weather has been so perfect lately (most of the time) and it makes me feel very happy to be able to leave the house without a jacket in toe. Summer and Spring dressing is my bag, Winter dressing is not. I think it's harder to have a consistent look when you have to have so many layers for warmth. Plus, the best piece of an outfit is often covered by a sub-par jacket. Or it is in my case!

I also bought the above Christian Dior 1960s enamel and 12k gold sunglasses. They were an investment, and I am considering them being on the cover of my book. They are so special, and my mind goes crazy thinking of all the glamorous people and places they must have seen, the people who may have worn them. They feel very happy and light - like they only experienced the romance, mystique and good of the 1960s. I literally love them and will keep them forever.

These, from the same collection, are originally were what started my love affair:

However, as you can see from the Ebay listing I linked to, they are out of my price range. This is another instance where I need a wardrobe sponsor. Someone to buy me all the garments and accessories I want without wanting anything in return except to see me enjoying and wearing my expertly picked outfits. I shared the link with my Mum saying "for my birthday!" ha. Maybe not.

As well as lusting over clothes and sunglasses I've also been listening to Taylor Swift's new album, pottering around my room and taking it a bit easy. Perhaps a bit too easy. I've been really slack with writing back to text messages and emails and didn't achieve a lot work-wise this weekend. I just felt like disappearing from technological communication a bit.

I did go a few places on the weekend, however - including the Magic Johnston 2 year birthday party thing in Collingwood - briefly - and resisted jumping on board a party bus after recalling when I did actually go on a party bus when I was 18 and felt nauseous and felt peer pressured to drink UDL mixed vodka drinks out of cans which are the most disgusting beverages in existence. On Saturday a friend and I made an appearance at some garage sales and then All Day Donuts where we got an Iced Vovo donut and I got very very sticky fingers!

Saturday afternoon I popped into Lady Petrova to see how the fabric prints I was commissioned for her turned out in real life!

I think you can probably tell the prints that I designed! I will post more about these when they're available for purchase - at the moment the samples are in store and available for try-ons and pre-order :D

Sunday was a much lazier day. I had a big sleep in (which is very rare for me!) and then managed to be talked into going to like this weird dog fair thing with my family and our dog Soda. It was pretty funny. There were miniature ponies and other farmyard animals are well as a plethora of cute dogs that made me smile. Including our own dog when he tried to be very tough in front of a miniature pony.

I then managed to talk my sister into driving me to a Vintage designer sale in Prahran on the condition that I bought her gelati at N2 on Brunswick street. The sale was very disappointing and I didn't buy a single thing - which is so crazy for me. I went to the sale wanting to get some nice pieces to use in my book but I felt everything was really overpriced and nothing was that special. I don't know - bad vibes! My sister is smart and talked me out of paying high prices for things that weren't at all remarkable. I was disappointed that I didn't find anything but actually glad that I didn't spend too much money on average quality things I could find in Savers if I 'apply myself' ha ha.

Then onto gelati - which was an experience in itself. It was like a nightclub in there. So stressful! I got a Kinder Surprise gelati which was pretty nice and soothed the sore throat I was harboring as well and lessened the disappointment that I didn't get any fun things at the sale. Wasn't meant to be! I learned that people really, really like gelati. Even at like odd times of the afternoon. My sister's gelati had a donut on it. Here's what they looked like:

Anywayyyy. So that's pretty much the extent of my weekend. I popped into Savers quickly this morning and bought the most amazing book. Here's a centrefold from it: