I don't know what's up with my body so I'm getting a bunch of tests done to find out what's wrong and hopefully fix it. Constantly feeling ill, nauseous and like I'm going to vomit is ultimately unpleasant and unproductive. Massive over share but I dun care. Mix stress and having too much on with feeling ill like this and I get really upset and monumentally frustrated. I have stuff to do, but I can't do it. Nothing is more vexing.
All I want to do is bury my head in the sand like an emu, turn my phone to airplane mode and focus on getting better. Not only is that all I want to do, but I know it's what I have to do. Unfortunately right now that is literally impossible. I don't go to school or uni anymore, I go to real life, and in real life you can't really call in sick for like two weeks because it's what you need physically and emotionally. You have to suck it up. You can't like not meet deadlines because you didn't feel well. In this day and age I think what we need is like a prerecorded message that people get if they email or call or text you in times like these like: "HEY, YOU. Minna needs some time out right now, she'll get back to you when she's up to it, so stop ringin', texting and emailing ya hear me!?" and everyone will be like hey, that's cool, no worries, I understand. Because everyone has times like this I reckon you know, when the year's coming to an end and everything just gets a bit much.
I keep having dreams with whales in them, which is symbolic of perhaps how stressed I'm feeling or something. The a few nights ago when I actually ventured out of my house to hang out with some friends, we played a game of Pictionary and Daniel had to draw 'Moby Dick' and I had to guess and I did, so that was another whale that came into my life. Since then I've really liked the idea of reading Moby Dick again and not stopping half way through. I think that would be relaxing.
To be totally honest, right now I'm actually watching the end of Miss Congeniality 2: Armed and Fabulous which is a good bad movie. Those are the things that I find most relaxing. Blah.
Some pictures from the past week: pre-bedridden and post bed-ridden!
|I put this temporary tattoo on to boost morale!|
And, this illustration for Emily's piece 'Changing your mind' on Rookie today :)
That's all for now, sorry for the mopey post, I'm sure I'll be back to normal soon.