I miss just going into my studio and drawing whatever. I find myself often just completing tasks and jobs which is great actually but I miss that aimless creating that usually results in something new or different. Yesterday I went to the studio with tasks but I decided not to do them and instead put on my headphones and listen to music and draw at my desk. The results are above. I really don't know how long it's been since I've done that. It felt good even though I had a sort of bad day yesterday.
I had a great evening though, with buddies, and we watched the new episode of the Game of Thrones. I hadn't watched it before at all so wasn't so up to date on what was going on but I was just happy to hang out and be with people. The Easter weekend was VERY solitary, I think too solitary, and I really enjoyed a bit of banter last night. It was also good for me to get away from my chocolate stash at home in all seriousness. I cannot control myself.
I discussed growing up, leaving Art School and becoming adults in the world with my friend Alice last night. It's really hard. I don't know what I'm doing. It's refreshing to hear that sometimes other people don't know what they're doing either. I mean is this what I'm meant to be doing? Sitting here on my bed typing this with the TV on in the background to keep my company? How am I supposed to spend my time?
|Angsty outfit pondering life in the bathroom|
|Okay this is fabric I bought. Looking at it makes me feel pretty good.|