|My beloved X|
I've worked all weekend which is good because I'm rolling in the folding stuff $$ (ca-ching), and good as well because it kind of kept me occupied and away from particular thoughts of the anxious variety. I still haven't gotten around to writing my thesis. Funny that. I'm leaving for America in 11 days and I just counted to write it here, and I didn't realize it was so soon and I can't believe that. I have 11 days to write my 3000 word draft. Incredibly doable, yes, but days go by quite easily without me stringing together a single decent sentence. Also there's other matters to contend with like emotions and stuff, that I can't seem to figure out at the moment. I'm only going away for like 2 and a bit weeks but I'm in a mentality that my entire life or at least my year is divided into pre going away and post going away. The entry I wrote a couple of days ago about putting stuff off till the endless horizon of tomorrow is really me pushing them into this space of 'when I get back'. Maybe it isn't a totally wild idea - last time I went to America my *whole life changed* (true story) and maybe this rupture to routine will again jolt me back like electroshock treatment into a rational and adult means of dealing with sadness, exhalations, vague relationships and all that great stuff.
Again while my trip isn't very long, I feel like I may as well be leaving on a jet plane forever, probably because I have been listening to a lot of Joan Baez and all those great folk singers of the 60s and 70s who write about going somewhere and never coming back and the Chelsea Hotel and California and getting on trains and incredible fondness' for place and people and lovers, and the largeness of missing someone. I love all that junk so much. I made a playlist. "Oh goody, something new and different for us." Here ya go. http://www.mediafire.com/?og2m27xlpnqmy It's for traveling and the idea of it, and for everything I mentioned above.
"Love can make you happy and love can rob you blind"
1. El Condor Pasa (If I Could) - Simon and Garfunkel
2. Daddy, You Been On My Mind - Joan Baez
3. Here In California - Kate Wolf
4. Willy - Joni Mitchell
5. Sweeter For Me - Joan Baez
6. Catch The Wind - Donovan
7. I Don't Know Where I Stand - Joni Mitchell
8. Way Behind The Sun - Pentangle
|Joan Baez, front, second from right (not the dog) at her sister Mimi's wedding 1968|
|Kate Wolf another goddess I am now in love with|
|This album cover is exactly what I have been talking about succinctly squished into an image|