Anyway I listened to some of her music to relax before the BIG OPENING the other night, and it sort of worked. I had the best time possible for being incredibly anxious and stressed having to be 'on' the whole night and stuff plus being exhausted after a week (albeit a good week) of install. It was really great though. There were SO MANY people and I think I finally convinced my parents that I DO actually have friends and lots of them at that. Well enough to fill Rearview, anyway. So that was really nice. I just always get so pathetically grateful that people actually come to these things, I love you all and hope you enjoyed the show and sorry if I said "WOW THANKS FOR COMING" about 20 times. I will post photos soonish. The show is on for 3 weeks open from Wednesday - Saturday 12 - 6pm.
When I finally stumbled home Saturday evening, I was so so so utterly exhausted, more than I'd ever been before. And emotional, and still stressed because I knew when I got home there'd be about 20 emails in my inbox and about 20 million things for me to do. But I just couldn't do them, and for the first time in my life I didn't do them. At 7.00pm I went to sleep and didn't wake up until 7 this morning. A perfect 12 hour sleep still in my clothes and with my lipstick printed on my pillow. Then I went to work.
I ended up being really reflective this weekend about my life and existence and stuff. I decided that I'm never going to dye my hair or compromise my fierce independence and tendency to be a little manic/inarticulate just to have someone to hold hands with. That's the way it's going to be, and as my ah.. 'muse' (don't tell everyone..) Lana Dey Rey sings:
"I WANNA BE THE WHOLE WORLD'S GIRL GRAMMA, I WANNA BE THE WHOLE WORLD'S GIRL".
|Me and my Mama|